Confession

This incident happened while I was graduating from a fashion school.

I was living in a PG where two roommates from a different career background came. They used to take fashion suggestions from me as they saw me experimenting with clothing in the room.

It was my internship time at a brand, and I was working day and night, getting only 3-4hours sleep. During that time, my eyes were filled with dark circles, face was tanned and health went down.

The company asked me to get a fashion model for their brand. So, I asked my roommates and one of them got ready. I informed them about her, but they didn’t approve. Then, I told that I want to model and was selected. When I told my roommate about it, she showed her happiness for me at that time.

After 3 days, they both went for shopping and after they came, we were discussing about shopped outfits. Then, they started belittling my fashion choices. The girl who was earlier ready for modelling, she tried an outfit and looked her best. Then, after that, they both started belittling me on the basis of my fashion choices and looks. They mocked at me saying, I am not good looking as her, so I don’t deserve to be at NIFT, instead, she deserves to study there. I went silent, felt sad and insecure.

I gave a pause to thinking about it and focused only on my work, not to waste my time, as I knew fashion is all about confidence. But, after my internship got over, I resumed thinking about it and talked to my therapist. She told me that the psychology behind bullying is their own insecurities. It is an attempt to make them feel good about themselves.

I realised, that we won’t bully someone if we are secure about ourselves and happy in our lives. So, if someone is bullying you, dont go insecure, instead, give them a smile, a calm smile of sympathy.